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self- evaluation

EVALUATION: The act or result of judging the worth or value of something or someone: appraisal, appraisement, assessment, estimate, estimation, judgment, valuation.

Well, I decided that last night I would do a self elvauation on myself and then be brave enough to post it on my blog......

My name is Kristin Denise Burris. I life in Garland, Texas. I was born in Baylor University Medical Center 26 years agao. I have 2 brothers and a sister and 2 wonderful parents. I am shy. I am quite. I am self consiouss most of the time. I worry about small things and I sweat about the large thngs. I work. I play. I laugh and I cry. I am sensitive. I am an individual. I am a Christian. I always look for the good things in other people. I have felt pain. I can be a pain. I am a student, I am an employee. I have witnessed death. I have witness life. I have a cat.
I have a dog. I am a sister. I am a daughter. I am a granddaughter. I am nosey. Sometimes i find out things I don't want to know. I do not unerstand how someone cannot love or give love. I believe that there is still some good in the world. I want someone to love and to be loved by someone. I believe that God is faithful. I believe that Gos is real. I believe in the FATHER, the SON and the HOLY SPIRIT. I believe in life after death. I believe that God sees and knows the deisres of my heart.

God is Bigger than....

I just wanted to mention how big God really is. When we run from God we always run right into him. This weekend of course as everyone know was Easter. I was raised in a Baptist Church. I was one of the fortunate ones that have been blessed with wonderful Christian parents who love and cared for me. But you see God is not religion God is a relationship. Since, my brother died last March my life had sort of driffted into this stage of not wanting to do the right thing. I have the head knowledge and I would even say I have the heart knowledge of His presense. So here I was doing my own thing, talking my own way and going down a road that needed not to be traveled. Sunday Morning I went to church at LakePointe Church(just a little side plug there) and the message was surprised by Jesus..... I had made it through the whole service still continuing to say to myself I am fine I can do what I want and still go to church. At the end of the service Pastor Steve showed a lady who had been incarcerated and had attended Lake Pointe while in jail. She made a statement, "the moment I was arrested was the moment I started to live." The next thing there was various people holding up signs one said "I was lonely, but Jesus filled the void" and " I let me abuse me but GOD healed my wounds." I began to cry and at that moment all of the frustration, pain and suffering I had felt I gave to Jesus. There was one thing that I had been doing that I knew I had to stop but I told God I CANNOT do this on my own you will have to do it and sure enough through His power I did what He had called me to do.... Do you know what the responce I had was unexpected and it was an answer to prayer that I had needed to hear for nearly 5 years. Jesus set me free and gave me the peace and guidance that I needed. I want him to take my life and Him make it His. What is in the darkness will always be exposed in the light..... I know all of this sounds like a bunch of jumble but Jesus touched me in a way that I have not known in a long time. check out the link on my blog to Lake Point

Happy Easter

Happy Easter Everyone!!!!

I don't know

Have you ever been in the car with someone and said, "what do you want to?" they say, " I don't know waht do you want to do?" And then you just drive around for hours repeating the same questions over and over again. Well, I am that person most definatly. I am the one saying I don't know. What do you want to do? I say all of this to say that I am not just like that in this respect but my entire life is a BIG I don't know what do you want. I can never make my own decisions and because of this my mind spins in circles and I just keep saying I don't know what to do? Boy, I am exshausted just tryping all of this. I hope you can follow. I am a very indesisive person. For instance, since I seem to talk about relatioships I will tell you someone once asked me what are you thinking and I tell them Nothing which isn't true. I was thinking what in the world are you doing with your life? Maybe, I think it is not worth talking about or bringing it up because I don't want to hurt their feelings. I don't know maybe I just don't like conflicts and do not want to cause one. It is a mystery to me.....

cry

Well, this weekend was a tough one for me. I was really down and so you know how when you are down you think of all the past things in life and you get curious and wonder what went wrong and why did things not work, and sometimes curiosity kills the cat. I decided that I would look up info on my x-husband on yahoo to see if he still had a yahoo account and he does. So I looked it up and it said under marital status married. I freaked out!!! I mean I have no feeling for him. I just thought oh my gosh! I am going to be old and frail and still leaving at my parents house and all ALONE!!! I mean I was not the one that ended the marriage he was. He was the big fat jerk and he broke my heart and know he is with someone else???? So I was sitting there crying and in my messery and the song Cry by Faith Hill came on and that is exactly what I wish he would feel. Let me share the lyrics:
Artist:
Faith Hill
Album:
Cry
Title:
Cry
If I had just one tear running down your cheek,Maybe I could cope maybe I'd get some sleep. If I had just one moment at your expense Maybe all my misery would be well spent. Yeah.... Could you cry a little. Lie just a little. Pretend that you're feeling a little more pain. I gave now I 'm wanting. Something in return. So cry just a little for me.
If your love could be caged, honey I would hold the key. And conceal it underneath the pile of lies you handed me. And you'd hunt those lies. They'd be all you'd ever find. And that'd be all you'd have to know. For me to be fineYeah.... And you'd cry a little

Believe me we would not be able to get back together because to many things have happened. I just hurt because I want God to supply me that special someone who will love me. I know it must not be time, maybe I need to be a little more settle in my own life before God can give me someone. Life is short and I need to live my life in way pleaseing to Him and I know that He will reward me.....