Trying So Hard

Ok, so I am in school and I am taking the hardest subject for me, "College Algebra." I hired a tutor and we started looking at the Algebra book this summer. The previous semester I took the course but, I had to drop out because I was sick. Anyway, so we started looking at the book and it was easy and I understood. I started the semester and the teacher walked in and I thought oh great this is horrible. The man is short and he has a pot belly and he is Asian, in a sense he looks like a Buddha guy. I really am not prejudice it is just that in the past I have has foreign teachers and I could not understand them. This teacher is no different. So I continued to plug along and I tried I studied every second of every minute I had I went to tutoring. The time came I took my first test I froze up and I made a "63". I cried my eyes out, I thought how stupid I was. I was more upset because I tried as hard as I could and still I did not pass the test. Since, then I haven't pushed as hard and I have tried to relax more but I feel like I am trying to give up. I can't give up!!!! I must proceed and do better on the next test.

Likewise, has anyone ever felt like they are trying real hard to do the right thing and then fall? Do you give up and not try so hard or do you press on. We all should press on.

His Name

Yesterday, at church Wes talked about how we use the Lord's name. I never thought that I was guilty of misusing His name. I mean I don't cuse, I don't use profanity with his name BUT, I am guilty of going about my day saying, "Thank you Jesus," and "Praise God" Do I really mean what I say or is it just something that I have come a customed to saying. It is real easy to adapt to the world around us and get caught up in what people are doing and saying arounds us. Alot of times I really mean what I am saying so I say,"Thank you, Jesus and I really mean it." So people do not think that I am just saying that to say it. I don't think that I have to explain myself to anyone but I do it to remind myself what and why I say what I say. Well, that is all of my blog entry for today so tune in next time for another adventureous tale in the life of Kristin Burris......

GRIPE SESSION

You know sometimes people can be so difficult to talk to or get along with. You say something is white and the other person swears that it is black. You can swear that it is purple and the say it is definitely orange. You just want to pinch there heads off and say sometimes you are not right quit arguing with me. Sometime people get a kick out of always thinking they are right. I mean no one likes to be wrong but when we are wrong we should own up to it. Why do we not own up to us being wrong? Is it that satisfying smile that comes across our face when we think ah ha I am right that keeps us from owning up to when we are wrong. I don't know maybe it is...... Anyway I done with my gripe session............ Have a nice night...... I am so right!!!!!

PRAISE

I am so thrilled because our class is spliting off and starting a new class. I am so excited because I get to be a part of the action. I will get to be the event coordinator and therefore we will have a lot of events...... It's play time. No in all seriousness I am so thankful that God has blessed me with the opportunity to met and be a part of such an awesome single class. There was a time in my life that was not so great.

I know that many people do not know but I was married before for two years to the guy that I thought that I would spend the rest of my life with. We did a good job of playing the role of church and we did the church things. I know that I can only speak for me but I know that I only did the motions and I did not serve God with my whole heart.

I know what it feels like to be hurt and I know what it feels like to love someone so much. Praise God he restored back to me what I had lost and has given my so much more than I could ever imagine.

IM STILL HERE

Hey all, I am still here. I just have to get the thoughts and paterns in my head about what I want to talk about. You know these blogs are suppose to be meaningful. They need to give you something to chew on. A food for thought. So lots of big changes in my life. I am deternmined this semester to get through with my College Algebra!!! Please Lord Jesus....... Let me pass. Is that a selfish prayer. I do not think so I mean I have to get through it in order to move on. I need to. Anyway this blog entry will be short. I just wanted to keep all posted that I am still here!!!!!!!

THE CHICKENS

Ok so today I was on my way to work and I was behind this truck and feathers started blowing toward my car. I thought how strange so I started to look a little closer at the truck and I realized that there was a bunch of white chickens on top of each other all throughout this truck. I started to think what a tragedy this was for these chickens. I wonder if they knew what their fate was. I then began to make faces and little noises like,"Awe little chicken, you cute little things you." I wonder if the people beside me thought that I was completely nuts and if they did they are not far from the truth. Anyway, that was on my mind. I just thought that I would blog my morning drive experience. This is just to prove how crazy I really am.

Do you think that God looked at all of us like the Chickens when he sent Jesus his only Son to die for us? I mean really none of us knew our fate and that is why we had to have a savior. We need someone to die for us in order to save us from the slaughter.

Life is Too Short

It has really been brought to my attention that life is short. One minute and day you are walking around and everything is so going your way. You can't even imagine your life being any different and then the next day Bam!!!! Someone so important to your life is gone...... It is like tunnel vision you know everything is black around you until you see a flicker of light. It just feels basically like crap!!! Something is missing and it cannot be replaced. There is no way that you can replace it..... You wouldn't want to really...... Somedays you go without even thinking about them and then somedays you see someone who looks like them and you go back to a time when you remember the smell,the look about them and the smiles.

I know that people have heard of this before but I have to tell this again. You know when you are born like me 10-6-79 well when I die there will be a dash in the middle and then it usually states the date you die. What will be your dash? Will your dash be that you could have lived a better life? Will your dash say she/he was a Christian, oh you never would have guess that?

Live Life to the fullest because you never know when it is gone.

The Art of Being Intelligent

You know I have been reading other peoples bloggs more since I started blogging myself. I think that sometimes I must be the stupidest person in the world. I am so not as smart as some people. People put a lot of time into the blog itself. You know like people do word searches: What is hope? You know I did watch "Hope Floats" last night does that count as studying the word hope..... and love what does love have to do with it? As Tina Turner once sang about. However, the great man, Forrest Gump once said," I may not be a smart man but I do know what love is?" Ok, ok let's think what is the definition of smart? Smart as defined by Webster dictionary, "an affectedly witty or fashionable person." Now if you look at the word intelligent it says--having or indicating a high or satisfactory degree of intelligence and mental capacity b : revealing or reflecting good judgment or sound thought : SKILLFUL. I would like to think that everyone at sometime has a moment of intelligency if we make good sound judgment. So here posses my question is it good to be smart or is rather better to be intelligent???? HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!! I do think that I am fashionable and for the most part people like to hang with me because of my whitt..... But what does the Bible say about smart or intelligence? For you gladly put up with fools since you are so smart! 2Co 11:19 I love that!!!! That is so great! *****The intelligent person restrains his words, and one who keeps a cool head is a man of understanding. Pr 17:27***** Wow!!! The intelligent restrain there words!!! Sounds almost like a challenge...... I am not sure what I was so interested in the topic except that I want to be smart and intelligent. I think all people excel in different things and a person is not stupid just because they do not know something. Again Forrest Gump said,"Stupid is as Stupid does."

It's Bananas

I am back from New York and let me tell you it is a whole different world than what I knew. I think that I have been sheltered most of my life and kept from the things that are really there. I was faced with a big fear and that is approaching people that I did not know. Everyday, God brought me out a little bit more and pulled me into facing people that were lost and could not find their way. I know for sure that the people of New York are just like that people in Dallas. They are very focused, on the go people. On the last day we were doing what we had done the whole week, we passed out gum and pocket sized subway maps. I started to yell "FREE GUM, anybody want a free pack of gum." Tons of people came and though some rejected the truth others accepted and I know that seeds have been planted. It is hard to face rejection and it is not always easy but God is the expert on rejection it is not just me they rejected it was Jesus Christ that they turned away. Servent Evangelism is draining because there is a spiritual battle that takes place. The plane on the way back was very hard because our flight was delayed and it caused us to miss our connecting flight to Dallas. We ended up staying the night in Atlanta and then catching the flight to Dallas on the way back. The whole time the song "BLESSED BE YOUR NAME" was in my head and I know God was wanting me to see that he will still get the glory. We had trials and troubles along the way but it was all worth knowing that the seeds have been planted in the hearts of New York City.

Start spreading the news

Ok everyone today is the last day here in dallas texas. Because tomorrow I am off to New York City for a mission trip. I have a lot of excitement, anticipation and nervousness. Ok, I know everyone wants to know my fears but here they are. I am scared too death about flying on an airplane. So we will see how everything goes on that..... I will think happy and calm thoughts throughout the trip. I am also scared about getting lost but I have my pass to give to the cab driver that tells him where my hotel is. This is so exciting and I am sure that I will have more to tell when I get back.......